Ecstasy is a direction to lean into. So is pain. This is emotional posture. Most people I know, myself included of course, seem to have had their natural connection to ecstasy disrupted. And their learned connection to pain, reinforced. So it becomes a cultivated habit... to plan, prepare and make room for... pain. Hope + optimism atrophy, while cynicism grows strong + muscular. Stop trying to avoid disappointment. Disappointment doesn't kill. Cowardice kills. Risk disappointment. Ecstasy seeks to drench such fools.